Losing faith

I watch the card of house whole series of third season in 13 hours

Which cause me non sleep with 22hours within yesterday 12 till today 10am

It's been passing more quickly of what actually the character emotion flow

The event happened so quickly that when there's a moment be on hold

You know if you have prepared to jump.....but you didn't, what's seriously cause you becoming?

A cowered   that with live desire  above everything else?

That's what I'm saying, I'm losing faith with myself

I guess I'm not very good with friendship keeping of all and

Now I got no one else to talk instead I have no one to share the thought

I couldn't tell the most afraid issue while it's such embarrassing 

I've no idea how I'm gona do with it

It's makes me feels like I was been abandoned, been ignored 🌊

You see....we're just waves, existing for nothing

Then what's it going to be?

I've been always tell myself that I was afraid I'm not gona shame of being get back to Taiwan 

Everyone would laugh at me, instead they don't give a shit at all since I'm not really relevant 

How could I born with such fix?

I couldn't get alone with people who may be able to support me

I'm sorry, it's true 

Truly

I always cheating on you 

But I want to have more human

Not push everything away

Instead hold something which I'm appreciated seriously 

I'm sorry

Truly sorry about it 

Love is the only thing we could hold it

Hold it would you?

Chase whom you've fallen with